Friday, July 31, 2009

best friends, do what best friends do.

real quick.


i'm at slc airport, waiting for my flight to az.


wait. i'm having deja-vu. wasn't i just here monday?
yup. here i am again.

I'm throwing everything else out the window this weekend, because I need to be home more than ever, possibly. I just need to be there, possibly for more own sanity than anyone elses' (but hopefully not.)

The absolute worst thing about going to school here, worse than not seeing my baby brother take his first step, worse than not shopping with my mom, worse than not being able to take my little sister to her first dance class,

is not being at home when someone needs me. 

I just absolutely cannot handle it sometimes. I hate feeling so useless when I could be helping, or just be there. This week has been especially tough.
lots of worrying, lots of prayers, lots of late nights, some tears. 

but I am one step closer to being home, helping fix something.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

there's someone I'm waiting for, if it's a day, a month, a year.


got a big ol' lecture about not blogging regularly (it was a week ago!) so I'm blogging. otherwise one of my best friends might disown me. some friend... : )


Ever feel like your life is on the edge of so many paths, so many directions, so many decisions?

That's me right now. There are so many paths I can take, and I'm not sure if I even want to move. I think I need to just be bold, make a decision and run with it. Secretly, I want someone else to make that decision for me, in some way or another. 

I have SO MANY pictures to go through...can't wait to get them up!

song: man who could not be moved. exactly.
 

Monday, July 13, 2009

it's just the beginning baby.


I'm hoping to get in on this blogging business, but so far it's been few & far between. The idea of writing down my ideas, accomplishments, goals and feelings is intriguing, but for some reason I am so intimidated knowing just about anyone, friends or acquaintances, could be reading my blog. Hopefully I'll snap out of that fear and get going on my blog, but we'll see. Also, those of you who know me know I can be a perfectionist, and lets face it: now I just want to design my own blog the way I want, because I hate having a design that isn't exactly what I've envisioned. One more thing on my to-do list ... : )


 I've gotten this notion in my head, and I've been thinking about it for weeks now. I've grown up with a library in my home since I was born, basically. It expands and grows at an incredible rate, books for Mother's Day, birthdays and about any other day in-between. And since both my parents are/have been teachers, I started with board books (which we still have), moved up to Frog & Toad, then paperbacks, then actual novels. When I went home last month, part of the baby's bedtime routine is a story with his bottle. He will literally sit down during the day with a story and turn pages as he gurgles to himself, and it is just darling. Anyways, I think it's my love of books [or just nerdiness?] that has led me to this next point.

I'm going to read Newsweek's Top 100 Books: The Meta-List. Whoa. Yup, it's written down, posted in a blog for who-knows to see, and so, I am actually committed to doing it [starting tomorrow!] I absolutely love reading, and this is a way to actually challenge myself while at the same time becoming a more literate, educated person. 

Here's a taste:

Yes, I am going to actually read LOTR ...





I would like to accomplish this list in a year, but with this year being my last full year of school, that may not be entirely possible. However, I'm going to try as hard as possible to do it. Also, I'm not going to re-read anything I've already read. The point is to have read everything on this list. Erik's going to do this list with me, which is totally something we would do together, and I'm excited. We have already decided once we finish this, we're going to do Top 100 movies and another Top 100 book list, because there are so many and it took weeks (literally!) for me to decide on Newsweek. 

One last thing. After each blog, I'm going to post my song of the day/week, whatever, because music is such a huge thing for me. I have a tendency to find a song, or just rediscover it, and then replay it until I'm officially sick of it. But besides that, the songs that I fall in love with tell a lot about me, my life, or just my moods.

This week, I've discovered The Maine, and it's been great. Two songs I can't get enough of right now? The Town's Been Talkin' and Whoever She Is.

xoxo.
leah

ps. maybe pictures from vacation next blog? it's going to take for.ever. but hopefully! : )